lil_luigi

Last week - mardigrass

Woke up saturday morn round 9 all ready and waiting to go to Mardigrass.... for those of you that dont know mardigrass is a festival for Weed basically, Its sorta a protest held at Nimbin (biggest stoner town ever) so that Marijuana can be leagalised... but yer anyway rang ash who was supposed to be commin round so we could get going and he was just waking up and said he would call me back around 12... which he did and said Matt was just waking up. So he came round and I brought with me my bag which was pretty much clothes.. warm clothes.. then about 6 boxes of donuts :P (munchie food) and another smaller bag with like Ipod, wallet and everythin else i needed.. but yer went round to Matt's and we were off to coles to do some shopping.. twas quite amusing actually... well not the shopping :P but the wierd crazy arab guy in the check out trying to ask me if i would get sexual stimulation if I pierced my cock... yer wierd, he was talkin to mattie about Osama Bin Laden aswell... what the ??

so we left coles and waited for other company to show up at matts place, lil dan and luke showed, Tim along with Mark and another guy who's name I did remember but cant seem to think of it atm.. so all who was comming was there and we all started to head up to Nimbin, though lil dan had some issues with his care so we ended up taking a detour to his house and sorting that out, finally back on the road around 4:30 in the arvo and from then on in it was just cruising... few J's... great music.. and great company.. arrived at nimbin at 6:45 to find out where to set up camp. walked the streets to see it covered with cops. though weed was being smoked, you just werent aloud to be seen trading.... well we found out where it was we were supposed to camp and, drove around to look for a spot, and finally settled around 8:00 for a funky spot right next to this huge ass tree that was kinda monumental... If i get the photo's ill post it, but it was really awsome at 3am, off tap with white lights behind it and heavy fog around it..... anyway enough about the tree, we set up this hard ars tent for like 45 mins and then decided we would split up, ash and the other gay guy mark decided to form team firewood.. (gathering firewood) and then Mattie, Tim, Tim's friend and Me of course decided to go scope the streets to see what we could find so we ended up being team stoners (sorta) lol matt was like GO TEAM STON.... Uhh what was I saying :P

so we walked the streets for almost 2 hours and it was almost impossible to score, until this old guy pulled up mattie and asked matt if he wanted some, so they did there thing meanwhile the old guy handed me some to hold, was a fair bit and I was like giving it back to him to when him and matt where done and he was like dw about it and tried to give me more, but I just gave it to Tim's friend.. but yer so we then headed off back to the campsite and partied on... actually dont remember much, drank some jimmy's and bout half an hour after getting back I tried a bit of nitrous.... I had hurd Tim sayin he had the set up all day and was wondering what the fuss was about.... and ... OMFG lol it gives u a total body numb for about 30 seconds, then after that it just increases ur alcohol intake... was pretty good *grin* I remember first taking it in and I was like yelling out "IM NUMMMB!!!" hehehe. but yer funny thing is its just you can buy nitros from night owl's for like $8 apparently..... its just laughing gas that the dentist gives u

so we sat round the big camp fire, with dan and luke in the tent most of the night... sometimes on of them would come out and poke around for a bit.. then around I think 3:30 - 4 mattie noticed our fire was going out so mattie, ash and myself set off (very toasted mind you)driving to look for fire wood..... pulled up at a nice spot and for about an hour we collected fire wood, and had miny sword fights... well matt was still looking but ash and I decided to play around hehehe... it was starting to get real late so we decided we had enough and started to drive back, only since we had the headlights on the car battery was flat :O....so while matt drove ash and I tried to push start the car but that wouldnt work....so we walked back to the camp.... took us about 25 mins, tried to get tim to drive us back to the car but that wouldnt work so we took ash's car battery and put it in the other car to start it, which worked eventually and got back to the campsite round 6ish I think.... from here on it gets fuzzy cause it was really trashed mixed with exhaustion... so I had a few more drinks, a few J's, and some nitro and apparently passed out sitting cross legged... to which matt's amusement he took a few pics of!!! *shakes fist* but yer If i get them and they arent completely horrible I may post them... through my sleep I also would randomly talk and point at things (so matt says) :P...

so passed out around 9.... woke up round 12ish and just veged out for a few more hours, matt was still up doing the same thing as when I passed out, and then round 4ish we packed up the tents. Tim and co left around 4:30... while ash was cleanin me and mattie were just still being lazy and vegin out but decided to help and eventually left the camp site around 5ish but not before we had to all hill start dan's car infront of these 4 shirtless foreign tough straight boys :P.... but yer i made us all stop to get sounveniers on the way out... well not for me, but i bought my mate paul a cool lighter, chop bowl, and pipe... so anyway the day concluded with mattie, ash and I cruisin along to awsome music once again... mattie giving me long hugs :P .. gettin all sopey on me... and then passing out lol... so we arrived at matts firstly we were originally goin to stay and hang out but matt pretty much passed out straught away.. so ash and I left and I arrived back at carindale at around 9:00 and thats pretty much what I remember from the weekend :) well done if you got this far... I know it was a long entry soz.... but you might aswell comment me since you read it all... till next time... (which wount be in another month) soon though cause I have to do a journal entry about mayhem, I have it written up but I just need to find the time to type it out... anyway laters!

How can anyone really judge, or evaluate what another person feels? They say im o.k by the way I look, and the things that go on around me.... They offer all there alternative ways of dealing with stress, saying I will feel better if I just do that, but it dosent help at all really, Like I have talked to him about it all and things just get more complicated when he assumes that I WANT him to change, or its him that needs to change... but its not, we so both need to work more on our relationship... so talking dosent work does it. Music?... Yes and no cause I am sitting here on the train listening to my music, when all Im thinking is about how happy and care free I used to be, and how much I really would like to get involved in this business, but hey thats why they call it a dream. So really the pain hasnt gone away... How can it when it has stayed for so long? I really do need these meds back, I need something besides being stoned or drunk all the time to make me "happy", cause they only work for moments, so then I would have another J, or either another drink... and then thats fucked cause I look like the biggest stoner or alcoholic???
Oh well its a thing called life isnt it??

So I Moved Out, And I Wount Be on here much anymore... maybe once a week, but who will miss me anyway??

Oh Fuck Yes!!!

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Cannot Wait, Mattie You Better Be There With Me!!

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Everyone should atleast once in their life: watch mr happy face, at 3:30 AM stoned!! its fucken hilarious

So its been a while since I updated.. round this time last month as the date says, havent updated this in a while cause things have been a bit crazy in my life, well sorta.... they startin to settle down atm (maybe? maybe not im not sure) shortly after my last entry Adrian and I went on another break cause of another fight between us, I instigated it thinking it would be for the best.. to clear my head but infact it sorta made worse off, every night for about 2 weeks after that I was either getting stoned or drunk to deal with the feelings in my head.. cause whenever I was sober I was cutting but eh dw not anymore getting inuberated  was working sadly and I regret to say but once again it seems pretty enticing to me, sittin here right now I just wanna be off tap so I can feel that numbness/ nothingness.... but I do have a friend commin over any minute now so I need to hold up atleast so I can be a good mate to him, cause he is a damn good one to me..... im supposed to be getting help from my old counsellor but mum hasnt organised that, I should get on her back about doing that or atleast gettin me some more anti depressants cause I havent been taking them for about a month either :S... they atleast gave me a safe comfortable numb so I didnt have to deal with shit, and it was a plus cause my friends agreed with me taking them.. dont really know where im going with this enty but I thought I better update this thing, I wount write down my "issues" though I would like to mention I have NO FUCKING IDEA where im going in the future... got a shit OP which dosent help cause dad is all like why cant u be smart and all like ur sister, have a stable Job and all... thanx dad.....

thoughts anyone??

Do You ever think about that one day back in June.... the 23rd? also the weeks preceding when we first started talking? it was amazing... what am I talking about it is amazing what we have babe. I remember that day as clear as hell and what i remember reminds me of one of the happiest days of my life. it consisted of a 2 hoiur drive to come get you while i was greeted with mixed emotions such as love, excitement and plenty of nervousness to wether you would still feel the same way as you said you did, once you met me... I remember sitting at the airport that morning with Andy and Nicole pretty much making myself sick because I was scared about being so close to someone who I hadnt been talking to for not that long yet I felt so much for. It confused me and remained unsettled in my stomach when I met you, casting my eyes upon you when I eagerly viewed you crossing the airport terminal to the building, then walking towards andy and nicole finally seeing you up close brought butterflies to the plenty. This intense feeling that was inside of me was not commonly known by teenagers my age.. Love? could it be... I can positively say yes it was, and still is very strong. Walking back to the car, holding your hand, with my smile strecthed across my face I remember that very moment I felt like nothing in the world could bring me down, make me uneasy cause I knew your presence was so filling, so loving that all I could experience was you...finally who could forget the car ride home, just you and me in the backseat staring at each other, gazing in amazment that we were finally holding one another, as much as i hate to admit it about myself we both sorta amazed each other, and still today Adrian you continue to amaze me, our love is as strong as it has ever been and I thank you for comming into my life and bringing me such happiness.. talking to a mate just online then. he said somethin very relevant which I think ill incorporate into this entry..... Love Is Beautiful

Bahaha had a hmm interesting night tonight...thought id share it

I was working tonight and I was opening a bag of sauce for our pasta's (for those of u that dont know I worked at fasta pasta) and yer the bag split when I went to tip it into the saucepin and about 3 meals worth at the most spilt on the floor, and my boss Rick got fair up me telling me it was like $80 of waisted profits on the ground... continued on for like 5 mins with me just sayin it was an accident, didnt mean to and all that but nah he didnt listen he is a stubborn $%!@ and yer throughout the night he continued to yell at me and at one point he had me in tears cause apparently he dosent need me to be a shit worker or somethin I dunno, stopped listenin after a while, but yer the cook that was on. Josh was sayin how Rick needed to stop being a tight ass that it was not even my fault and yer he needed to stop yellin about it... so yer finished off my shift and went to sign off and Rick took me to the office to talk to me about how apparently my attitude needed to change cause im always been complainin if they ask me to do somethin... when I used to love working at fasta pasta so thats complete bullshit, also it needed to change cause of tonight about how i got all upset when he got up me.... lol uhh what does he expect me to do, stand there and take abuse for somethin that wasnt my fault, so rick said I had a month to change otherwise I was gone... I then turned around and said "look fuck you, ya dont need to give me a month, here *takes off shirt, apron and hat, and slams on desk* I fucken quit!" - A statement which im pretty proud off, but yer he was like dont be stupid u need a shirt u cant walk out in the resturant shirtless, i just walked off sayin fuck you I have one, while walkin out the cook was like u o.k? I said yer fuck this im not workin for that cockhead anymore at the top of my lungs while customers were about and yer... so im now un - employed and it feels good for once, to be un employed cause i have always been workin for like 4 years straight!

Goodbye to all my fasta pasta buds

that is all!

       

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Summafieldayze enty still to come!